Back to virtual life though. I’ve been spending time on that dating site again, sifting through the idiots to see what I would find.
I found one who’s really into pregnant women...no hope for me there. Another one hadn’t been laid for eight months and said he was exploding, poor thing. I didn’t find that very appealing; probably a recipe for a complete, but short, disaster – such as those that were all too frequent during adolescence.
But then, I bumped into one who’s my age, divorced, no kids, loves animals and is a bit of a farm boy at heart. Doesn’t smoke and says he doesn’t party much. Sounds like a good guy. We started chatting and I quickly found out that the marriage had been very short; based on a hasty, ill-contemplated decision, he said. Isn’t that a bad sign? A man who gets too easily carried away when he falls in love, a romantic dreamer not in touch with reality. My commitment phobia instantly kicked in. This man must NOT fall in love with me; I wouldn’t be able to trust a word he’d say in that state!
The fact that he doesn't have any children also bothered me. I asked him straight out whether he wanted to have kids in the future. ‘Oh yes, I’m old-fashioned that way, I want a wife and kids and a good family life,’ he replied. That was it then.
I told him I had no plans of ever having kids. He didn’t say much but when I asked him whether he wanted to stop talking to me therefore, he said ‘no’. So we’re still talking. He’s not going to be Mr Ever After but we might be able to have some fun for a while. His name’s Jonathan.
It turns out he’s very recently divorced. I have no interest in being yet another man’s practice partner while he gets in the game again so I had to pry and asked Jonathan if he’d already, y’know, gotten things out of his system? *wink wink* He thought it was funny, but understandable, I’d ask. And assured me, he had actually been in a woman’s bed since the divorce. Thank God.
So I’m going to keep on chatting with him. He’s intelligent, witty and sounds kind. We might not be destined to be together but maybe we can enjoy each other‘s company for a while, if you know what I mean. *wink wink*
